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May 31, 2005
and whatnot in a nutshell...It was a fantastic long weekend! The sun was out, it was warm and it actually felt seasonable! I got to watch a few movies, but only one in it's entirety. Spanglish was a very good movie, I enjoyed it. The rest I was in and out of sleep while watching. Like Swordfish, Dead Alive (icky), and Battle Royale. The only movie I intend on finishing is Battle Royale. For some reason, I particularly like that movie. For those of you who don't know anything about it, here is a quick summary: A class of Japanese school children are dumped on this island for 3 days. They are given a knapsack with some necessities and a weapon, then they have to kill each other off until there is only one survivor left. Apparently there is a book this movie is based on, which I did not know. I am tempted to read it. Key word is tempted, who knows if I will or not.
I also had a night out in Boston, which I RARELY do... I had fun. It was a late late night though or should I say really early morning. Now, I need a long weekend to catch up on the sleep I missed out on this long weekend. I could just fall asleep right now... bam. zzzzz.... but I can't.
I also have to get back to planning this wedding. However, I have no desire to do so. I realize now that I ended up with the wedding I never had intentions of having (not the getting married part of course). It is kinda turning frou frou and that is just the opposite of what I wanted. The wedding industry tricks and manipulates you. In your search for ideas and help, they over-saturate you with these images of the "perfect wedding". The idea of a perfect wedding should be individual. Instead it is dictated by magazines, books and media.They automatically assume that all women want to wear a big gown with feathers and sequins and that you HAVE to have a 10 course meal catered by men in white gloves. Granted, I didn't want to have a backyard or Lion's Club wedding... I just want something unique to us and so far we have nothing. All of my idea's are being shot down. I HAVE to wear off white shoes to match my frou frou dress, I HAVE to wear my hair up and curly. I HAVE to wear makeup and look like a clown. I HAVE to have some kind of wedding favor. You know what, I WANT to wear fun eccentric shoes. I WANT to wear the hairstyle the I feel most comfortable and pretty in. I don't WANT to be made up like a clown. I WANT to do a donation vs. a favor. How can I possibly win? It is ultimately designed so that I fail in my effort to be unique.
May 29, 2005
Danger...After a long night of fun and drunken dancing topped off with a oh so favored visit to chow chow (sp?). Hitting the sheets in the tender am hours and then waking on this fine Sunday HANG OVER FREE... this is the stuff danger is made of!! I am ready to roll for another day of fun in the sun (well kinda).
May 27, 2005
MISSINGMISSING: MY TWO BUDDIES
LAST SEEN: Thursday, May 19th sometime in the mid afternoon.
DESCRIPTION: Large bright round ball in the sky, emits UV rays and much needed warmth. It's usually a goldish-yellowish color and can be seen from almost anywhere you stand. Also missing, azure hue in sky, usually makes big yellow ball seem so much warmer and bright.
If you see these two:
Please, tell them to get the FUCK BACK WHERE THEY BELONG
May 26, 2005
Dehydration?It must be the cause of my woes as of late! Ever since I woke up Sunday morning, I have felt icky. A constant state of icky... I am hungry, yet I don't want to eat and when I do eat I feel icky. I feel very out of sorts, almost like your a-typical pms symptoms. I HAVE HAD IT! Then as I sit here this morning staring at my Poland Springs bottle I realize that since Sunday I don't think I have had more than one of these little pint bottles a day! Now, in a day, I drink my morning coffee and almost a whole pint of water and maybe a bottle of beer at night but that isn't nearly enough liquids to keep my hydrated. Especially after last Saturday night. My mission today is to drink 3 pints of water. I need to feel normal again. Drink Drink Drink Baby!
May 25, 2005
Since when am I stoner?
 | You scored as stoner. You're a stoner. Stop..drugs are bad...mkay!
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Hmmm... and if I were a desginer style...
 | You scored as Anna Sui.
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I have a quirk that I would like to share with you... ready? It takes forever for me to eat popcorn! I really don't like to eat it at the theater because I cannot eat the popcorn the way I want. But, when I eat it at work or at home I like to pick each individual kernel apart and remove that annoying shell that always gets stuck in your teeth. It is quite tedious let me tell you, but for some reason that is the only real way I like to eat it and I find it quite gratifying.
I've done it! I have done the good deed I have always been afraid to do! I donated my blood... I hate needles and I hate bloodwork. I did it anyway though! It actually did hurt a bit... but it was nothing! :) Now, maybe I will go out and get that tatoo I always contemplate getting.
Hi... look! I joined flickr! YAY
May 24, 2005
What the JUNK?Yet another day of misery... Seriously I love overcast cloudy/rainy weather really I do... but when it is like over 70 degrees and not for weeks on end! I am not a huge fan of the sun as most of you may know. It makes me ill (like physically ill when I am exposed for extended periods of time), but when you have day after day after day of overcast/rainy weather it starts to feel like one of those dark movies (like the Matrix). Only at these point do I truly hope for the sun to come out so it can radiate my skin and give me cancer. The most depressing part of this ditty-rant... I just checked to forcast and there is no sun scheduled to peek out until next Tuesday and it's gonna be cold. You know what this means...
I CALL FOR A SACRAFICE, we must apease the gods, for some reason we have angered them! I am also calling for an INQUISITION to find the person(s) at fault for this horrid weather! Then, we can SACRAFICE them and then the sun will come out and we can all go skipping through the grass!
Oh, here are some more commuter contemplations:
I pondered a bit on the seemingly OCD/addictive personalities of my family members. I then tried to think if I had these qualities in myself. This was quickly confirmed as track 5 of my new cd, bought last tuesday, played for the 7th day in a row during my commute. It also plays every afternoon of my commute as well. In fact, the damn CD has not left my car since it's purchase. The albumn has been listened to an infinite amount of times so far. Why I ask myself, do I need to listen to new music like this? There must be some amount of pleasure derived from listening to these tracks which makes me want more of it. Then it came to me, there are certain ways a piece of music is put together that, for some reason, puts me into a state of mini-bliss. That must be the reason why!
Also, the idea of blogging is to share your thoughts. However it is a catch 22, you can't really share your thoughts entirely because you are conscious of who is reading. Therefore, you cannot share what you truly want to share at any point necissarily. You can't win I guess.
May 23, 2005
Quiz Farm!While blog surfing I found Quiz Farm! Love these quick little time consumers!
Here is my first quiz's results (I love how hedonism is a close second! HELL YA)
| You scored as Justice (Fairness). Your life is guided by the concept of Fair Justice: Everyone, yourself included, should be rewarded and punished according to the help or harm they cause. More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...
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Incase you wondering what my "sexual style" is... please note that I am Shy yet Violent WATCH OUT
You scored as Shy. You are shy, cute...but shy. There are a lot of people that find you attractive but you just aren't sure what to do.
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I would like to state for the record that I feel highly unsociable today. This is not a day I feel like being at work. Actually, I would like to be sociable with a small group of people. But so far my morning has forced me to be kind, courteous and smiley with WAY too many people. I would hope my mood lifts otherwise I will be running people off the road on my commute home, or at least day dreaming of it! I hate my commute. My commute is long enough for my brain to fire off a million thoughts and ideas that I cannot do ANYTHING about. By the time I walk into the office it all disappears. Poof... like magic.
Today's captured thoughts before they went poof:
thinking about wanting to write a book(what I don't know)...
thinking about having a better more meaningful job...
thinking about how much I actually do like guns...
SIDE BAR: I know I never speak much of guns and what not, so it may strike people as odd to say that I like them. You see, when I was at a tender young age (somewhere between 9-12) my Dad let me shoot a woodchuck with his gun. I got to look through the little scope and everything. The woodchuck was on one of the hills I would say about a quarter of a mile away, maybe a little more. I don't know anything about that gun, all I know was that it had kick and they were little bullets! Ya, so anyway I aimed at the head of this woodchuck and hit my target perfectly. I shot it right in the head. I was very proud and satisfied. I used to shoot this little gun my Mother had when she was a child. I loved shooting the gun with my Dad. Even now, we have a pellet gun and paint ball guns. I still find it very enjoyable to shoot.
thinking about how I could broaden my musical selections...
thinking about my wedding day and whom I would like to dance with...
thinking about why I feel like doom and gloom...
thinking about me losing weight and how I have slacked off...
thinking about Saturday's events to see what I could remember and if I had made an ass of myself (which I concluded that I did not make an ass out of myself and if I did, please don't tell me otherwise)...
thinking of theories on human behavior...
thinking about the charming, quirky and endearing qualities of my friends and wondering what mine were...
thinking about Star Wars and how hot Anakin was the more evil he became (until he got all charred up and shite)...
wondering why I even thought Anakin was hot the more evil he became, I certainly didn't like him in the other movie. Generally wondering why I am attracted to the "darker" characters (Peter Townsend in LXG )...
thinking about why I can never finish what I start...
Then I got to work and that was the end... all 45 minutes worth of thoughts... which didn't go poof today!
Just talking about them has improved my mood. See it's good to get your thoughts out, it helps clear and organize your mind.
May 02, 2005
Post from a new locationTesting out this new "thing' called dash blog... does it work? If so, I think it is brilliant!
Time to go and get ready for work now.
